While I could go on and on about not posting for so long and about all of the happenings of my life... I'll refrain from that for now. What I can say is that I have felt a stirring in my heart so strong about so many things lately that I can't help but want to share them and proclaim them to all who will hear.
My journal entry today reads:
For some reason I feel like today marks a beginning and a "freshness." I feel like God is going to do new things in my heart and in my life. He is up to something big and I sense a renewed desire to dive deeper into my relationship with Him. My time with Him has become static and routine and the fire needs to be rekindled. My knowledge of Him is so shallow and superficial and I desire a deeper understanding. I want to "rediscover" Him in silence and solitude. I want to fall more in love with Him and I want that love to consume every aspect of my being. I want my love for Him not to be an afterthought, but to be fierce and unyielding. I know the only way to deep, compassionate, and humble ministry to others is through an abiding and constant passion for God that can only be obtained through silence, stillness, and solitude with Him.
God, set my heart on fire for You and then set it on fire for the lost and hurting world around me.
We need to find God
and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness.
God is a friend of silence.
See how nature - trees, flowers, grass -
grow in silence.
See the stars, the moon, the sun,
how they move in silence.
Is not our mission
to give God to the poor?
Not a dead God, but a living, loving God.
The more we receive in silent prayer,
the more we can give in our active life.
We need silence
to be able to touch souls.
The essential thing is
not what we say,
but what God says
to us and through us.
All our words will be useless
unless they come from within.
which do not give the Light of Christ
increase the darkness.
-Mother Teresa of Calcutta